Last Moments

The eyelids close, for one last time,

Eternal sleep and peace of mind.

My rose stopped blooming, 

My lake is dry, the stream is gone

The last words said, at last it’s right.

The Psalter

The Psalter

In the silent night,

Under moonlight,

Inside a quiet chapel,

There was an inside battle.

Mommy

Don’t worry, Mommy,

I won’t come crying,

I’m not the same girl as before.

Beautiful Nightmare

I want to go to sleep. Rest in my bed, and get a good dream. I want to get lost in a fairytale. I want to see you. You will smile and walk away. And I will be running after you, while your image will be fading away. You escaped again.

You.

I'm falling all over myself, trying to be someone else. I can't do this anymore. This is too much. Why can't my heart stop hurting? Why can't I stop loving? Why does it always have to turn out this way? Always...

The Flame

            Come back. You’re so far away… usually, I don’t see you as well, and we don’t even talk. But usually, I’m not lonely, like now. Usually, I feel that you are close. We are almost always in the same building. But now… you are on the other side of the world. Come back… I’m lonely. If you come back, I swear, I won’t be scared anymore. I will tell you everything. I won’t hide anything. I will tell you these three words… I will hug you. Feel the warmth of your body, hold you tight and stay still, breathing in your smell. I don’t care what you will think. I believe, believe that one day my love will warm you up as well.  I will share the fire in my heart. You will feel the same way I do, soon. I will share - it’s nothing. And then… we will be together. Come back. Listen, I love you.
            Just hurry up, ok? I’m lonely. It’s so dark… and freezing. Yes, fire in heart is warm, but it won’t stay for long. Every time you ignore me, every time you just pass by without even noticing me, every time people say I have no chances, every time they say you are not the one for me – the flame gets weaker. Just a little bit, it’s very hard to notice, but slowly – it gets smaller. What if… it goes out before you come back? You know, every time you smile, every time you look at me, even accidentally, every time you are happy, every time you laugh, every time you succeed, every time I see you – the fire gets stronger.

            So… please do hurry.  Don’t put out this delicate flame. I want to warm you up. I want to warm everyone up. I’ll make your heart warm, and together, look, we’ll make the whole world warm. And then, then no one will cry anymore! No one will suffer! No one will kill. If we warm everyone’s hearts, people will love! Just like you and I.  And both of us will be together. In the perfect world with no hate. Nothing to fear. The flames will show us the way.

            Come back… I’m scared. I’m dying…

- Firescales