Thursday, September 26, 2013

The girl with a speech


My breathing’s hard. I think everybody can hear it. Terrible. Why? Why can’t I force myself to do it?
               I tighten my grip.  A brief outline of my face is seen in the metal doorknob. I’m red. Oh god. Did I come all this way just to freak out and run away?
                  “The only method for getting far is never, ever giving up”
                  No. I can’t do this. I should just go home.
                  “What defines failure? You fail if you stop trying.”

Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Untitled

There's a person in my life, a girl that changed everything, a human being that turned my world upside down, and made me fall into a rabbit hole. She is beautiful, absolutely wonderful. When she walks, her tiny feet step so lightly, her body moves so graciously, that she appears floating in the air, about to fly all the way up to the sky and get lost in the clouds. In moments like that, I want to grab her to make sure that she won't leave me and get lost in the stars. When she smiles, her eyes wrinkle in such an adorable way and her laugh sounds like little bells jingling on a Christmas morning. When she talks, her excitement and her joy echo in everything around and as she starts dancing around like a little girl, strangers stop to look at her and pure happiness changes their faces, lighting them up like fireworks. Some might think she acts like a little kid, but that's not true: she can be serious when she wants to. With strangers and adults she is sufficiently polite and mature, but the moment we are left alone her mask comes off, and her eyes start shining with the life she is so full of. She knows so much more than most people though, more than she should know, she scares me with all the things she is well aware of and all of her strange ideas. Often she would start speaking about something that regular people don't even think of, and then ask me questions that I don't know the answer to. She makes me think more than I ever had, see things in completely different ways, and bother me with her words so much that I can't fall asleep thinking about them. Lovely, beautiful, majestic words. Some words heal, some words ruin your life forever. I love her words, her soft voice, her expression, and wrinkles around her nose when she's thinking. I am hopelessly in love with her, and she makes me go wild with joy, like nobody else ever could. Everything is perfect... except for the fact that I'm a girl too.

Monday, May 6, 2013

Last Moments


The eyelids close, for one last time,
Eternal sleep and peace of mind.
My rose stopped blooming, 
My lake is dry, the stream is gone
The last words said, at last it’s right.

The Psalter


The Psalter

In the silent night,
Under moonlight,
Inside a quiet chapel,
There was an inside battle.

Mommy


Don’t worry, Mommy,
I won’t come crying,
I’m not the same girl as before.

Beautiful Nightmare


I want to go to sleep. Rest in my bed, and get a good dream. I want to get lost in a fairytale. I want to see you. You will smile and walk away. And I will be running after you, while your image will be fading away. You escaped again.

Saturday, May 4, 2013

You.

I'm falling all over myself, trying to be someone else. I can't do this anymore. This is too much. Why can't my heart stop hurting? Why can't I stop loving? Why does it always have to turn out this way? Always...